Anyways, i have exactly more than a week for my semester exams :( and i am not NOT doing anything productive rather than sitting down staring at complicated chemistry problems, and then giving up, walking out of my room; returning an hour or so later. Totally drained and sucked out :( I then throw myself at my comfy bed.
Few hours later, the sun is shining in, and i am basking in the glow of the glorious sun.
It is 7am, TIME TO GO TO SCHOOL
Any work done? NO!!
And my EXAMS are in 11 days, not to mention; these are of paramount of importance as they HAVE to be great, in order for me to apply to universities in the UK in fall and get a scholarship. :(
What do i do!!
This is killing me, i feel like retiring and running away, leaving all of cell respiration, krebs cycle and Hybridization behind. I cannot take it, there is no more fuel in my engine and i have too much expectations that i am worried;i cannot fullfill.
I wish the whole; GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF ME feeling
comes back for me once again, i feel so at home, whenever i think of him and i feel like i can move mountains
I really need that cause right as of now; i am so down and drained that i cannot take the next step into the future:(
Everyone thinks i am sum kind of GENIUS; i am not. I am simply a girl, trying her best. WHY cant they get that, sometimes i feel like screaming at them. I HATE them... SHOO SHOO GO AWAY..
All these stuff only increase the expectations; and the responsibilities i have, MAKE ME MORE STRESS seh; encouragement is one thing; but IGNORANCE is another. I beg of them to understand me please :S
It is so irritating when you are the dart board for many students; especially when you have no intention at all to be a competition to anyone, i merely want to perform at MY best .not at yours; got get off my back dude
People like CODE: RHINO are soooo competitive that i feel like jumping on her back and bringing her back or kicking her butt that she goes flying all the way to Siberia, i know such ill feelings are so not nice; but still this is the true representation of anger and IRRITATION
For my upcoming exams the stakes are high; because i know i need to perform well and get good semester report for my UK universities application. This is ubber important and i pray that God gives me the strength and refills my fuel and sees me to the end of the finishing line; MAY 26th 2009.
This is my Fighting plan for now till May 26th
- Sleep at 10.30pm; latest 11.00pm; so as to get back the human clock fixed
- Wake up at 6.00am; do yoga. calm yourself for the day; (dun let goondoos anger you)
- Come home after school pronto and start work at 6 pronto
- Go work in the Library if necessary and if you have no homework that day
- CLEAR all doubts this week itself; dun wait till next week :)
- GET ALL SET FOR HISTORY AND FRENCH AND MATHS this week itself :S Due:sun 16/5
- History:
- Go get the exam format; and plan the freaking notes; with possible quotes to use
- Go PRACTICE SBQ!!
- China Cuba and USSR to study and mugg
- FRENCH
- Do up the Verbs POSTER on SUNDAY 9/5
- Do the vocabulary cards MONDAY 10/5
- At least Practice one CARTE postal and letter
- MATHS
- Revise Vector 9/5
- Do up topic covers 9/5
- REVISE one topic a day and practice questions from TYS textbook and worksheet
- CHEMISTRY BIOLOGY
- Syllabus :) MUG MUG MUG
My head is throbbing and my eyelids are shutting so close, i cannot see where i am
I thnk i am going to cancel my tuition tommorow, i cannot handle MANDARIN as of yet now
Too much going on for me.
I think i will sleep and wake up at 4.00am to do some work and do finish homework
i still have
- Chem lab calculations 4.30am-6.00am
- World Lit essay 9.30am-11.30am
- Chem Website 7.30am-9.00am
- Vectors REVISION 300-500
- French Homework and POSTER 1200pm-1330pm
- HISTORY presentation tidy up :) 6.00pm- 7.00pm
- Finish up Chem Atomic Structure REVISION (opt :] ) 8.00-9.00
- TOK ideas and pack up back 0930-1030
- SLEEP AT 1030.. NO DELAY
AMEEN
goodnight world :)
