its summer dudes

Its been a long long time since i actually said this...

It is the holidays :D

i am just fresh after the cruise trip. I sailed the oceans, tasted the breeze and basked in the glorious sun

I was listening to the theme of Titanic, whilst sitting on the 13th deck of the cruise. I was living the life. I felt the breeze, looked up at the sky and counted the stars.

but i wished i could do what Kate Winslet did in Titanic? i wish i could spread my wings and fly :D

i spent my time at the cruise... eating EATING and Eating

Nothing could stop me from eating the extrodinary food

but right as of now, i am jet lag,,, or rather cruise lag

lol, i am going to retire

but let the pic do the talking yes?

I have moved

This is a move from livejournal. I love changes and i am going to live with one :)

Anyways, i have exactly more than a week for my semester exams :( and i am not NOT doing anything productive rather than sitting down staring at complicated chemistry problems, and then giving up, walking out of my room; returning an hour or so later. Totally drained and sucked out :( I then throw myself at my comfy bed.
Few hours later, the sun is shining in, and i am basking in the glow of the glorious sun.

It is 7am, TIME TO GO TO SCHOOL
Any work done? NO!!

And my EXAMS are in 11 days, not to mention; these are of paramount of importance as they HAVE to be great, in order for me to apply to universities in the UK in fall and get a scholarship. :(
What do i do!!

This is killing me, i feel like retiring and running away, leaving all of cell respiration, krebs cycle and Hybridization behind. I cannot take it, there is no more fuel in my engine and i have too much expectations that i am worried;i cannot fullfill.
I wish the whole; GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF ME feeling
comes back for me once again, i feel so at home, whenever i think of him and i feel like i can move mountains

I really need that cause right as of now; i am so down and drained that i cannot take the next step into the future:(
Everyone thinks i am sum kind of GENIUS; i am not. I am simply a girl, trying her best. WHY cant they get that, sometimes i feel like screaming at them. I HATE them... SHOO SHOO GO AWAY..

All these stuff only increase the expectations; and the responsibilities i have, MAKE ME MORE STRESS seh; encouragement is one thing; but IGNORANCE is another. I beg of them to understand me please :S

It is so irritating when you are the dart board for many students; especially when you have no intention at all to be a competition to anyone, i merely want to perform at MY best .not at yours; got get off my back dude

People like CODE: RHINO are soooo competitive that i feel like jumping on her back and bringing her back or kicking her butt that she goes flying all the way to Siberia, i know such ill feelings are so not nice; but still this is the true representation of anger and IRRITATION

For my upcoming exams the stakes are high; because i know i need to perform well and get good semester report for my UK universities application. This is ubber important and i pray that God gives me the strength and refills my fuel and sees me to the end of the finishing line; MAY 26th 2009.

This is my Fighting plan for now till May 26th

1. Sleep at 10.30pm; latest 11.00pm; so as to get back the human clock fixed
2. Wake up at 6.00am; do yoga. calm yourself for the day; (dun let goondoos anger you)
3. Come home after school pronto and start work at 6 pronto
4. Go work in the Library if necessary and if you have no homework that day
5. CLEAR all doubts this week itself; dun wait till next week :)
6. GET ALL SET FOR HISTORY AND FRENCH AND MATHS this week itself :S Due:sun 16/5
7. History:
   

• Go get the exam format; and plan the freaking notes; with possible quotes to use
• Go PRACTICE SBQ!!
• China Cuba and USSR to study and mugg

1. FRENCH

• Do up the Verbs POSTER on SUNDAY 9/5
• Do the vocabulary cards MONDAY 10/5
• At least Practice one CARTE postal and letter

1. MATHS

• Revise Vector 9/5
• Do up topic covers 9/5
• REVISE one topic a day and practice questions from TYS textbook and worksheet

1. CHEMISTRY BIOLOGY

• Syllabus :) MUG MUG MUG

What can one do, but just look at the future and wish that when he reaches there, he would be as happy as ever
My head is throbbing and my eyelids are shutting so close, i cannot see where i am
I thnk i am going to cancel my tuition tommorow, i cannot handle MANDARIN as of yet now
Too much going on for me.
I think i will sleep and wake up at 4.00am to do some work and do finish homework
i still have

1. Chem lab calculations 4.30am-6.00am
   
2. World Lit essay 9.30am-11.30am
   
3. Chem Website 7.30am-9.00am
   
4. Vectors REVISION 300-500
   
5. French Homework and POSTER 1200pm-1330pm
   
6. HISTORY presentation tidy up :) 6.00pm- 7.00pm
7. Finish up Chem Atomic Structure REVISION (opt :] ) 8.00-9.00
8. TOK ideas and pack up back 0930-1030
9. SLEEP AT 1030.. NO DELAY

:) Oh lord PLEASE give me the strength and discipline to follow this plan
AMEEN
goodnight world :)